my post of my jealousy

well since as long as i can remeber i was that guy i knew it and so did everyone else..i might sound concieted but yeah i was irresistable to everyone for some reason i could get anyone i wanted i was to good at it... i got what i wanted and then threw it away..and moved on i was such a big player i dont know why i did it but i did...if you ask people about me theyll say that im a player girls know me all over...i dont talk to them and none of them beleive ive changed but i have..this doesnt sound beleiveable but i made a list of girls that ive done stuf with and went out with and after i got past 90 i stopped counting because it made me feel bad...because i couldove kept adding names and there was a few i even forgot or didnt ever know there names  i have proof of all of them to becasue i can bring them up...lol its not good...and i guess after years of doing that i just wasnt that intresested ive felt like ive had it all and then i met agi and i had a somewhat serious relationship but thing was i wasnt...i cheated still and talked to whoever i wanted i didnt care i always told her what i did though becasue i didnt like lying about it...and i really regret doing it all and she knows i do becasue we fixed everything now but i havnt talked to her since we hung out i think it settled things with both of us finally kindal ike putting a lost sole to rest yeah...i feel alot better now...ive apoligized to most of the girls over time but i gave up after awhile because none of them believed me but i dont blame them...from how much i lied why should they?   but anyways after that horrible realtionship with agi...i know i said i loved her but im not sure what to call it...becasue theres no way i couldove loved her if i did i wouldove cared more maybe its just becasue she was like my frist real girlfreind i had strong feelings for someone that actually showed more feelings for me than anyone else ever did...but no i dont think it was love......

             there is only one person i love and that is asberry
  i met her and i knew from day one...in a way it wasnt right..but i also did like her...becasue when i first saw her i told my freind that she was hot and i wanted her...they said you cant get her she has a bf and theyve been going out for awhile...right when they said that it was now a mission...i would get her at all costs...lucky for me everything when into place and worked out...i did everything for her not becasue i had to but becasue i wanted to i liked her so much she was perfect in my eyes there was a couple things that happened in the beginning that i was hurt by but never said anything about becasue i felt stupid..but it didnt stop my feelings for her         i really messed up with agi and i still apolize to this day but its over now everything is better now..

 we love eachother more than ever and always will <3 i love you asberry