Thursday, March 31, 2011

you there?

baby keep me updated blog about everything you do lol im curious lol

secret day

haha today should be a good day if everything goes as planned usually my plans go good. so anyways while im at school kitty will be sneaking into my house she can eat some golfish and flamin hots and a cupcake if she wants that lol and she can lay in my bed and get on my laptop and play video games if she wants to lol she has my house to herself lol and the plan is that she stays there all day and well figure something out later haha hope everything goes good i love you baby and i hope my dogs dont attack you i didnt think about that but you should be fine just say lexies name lol so anyways i have a doctors appointment today and hes gonna grope me and i dont like that haha

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

great day

well yesterday was great it was just like old times lol..i woke up and called her at 7 in the morning i told her to come over she got her and we went at it for like 6 hours was was great..
      well anyways she was hungry lol she ate a breakfast sandwich, 2 bowls of trix, 2 cookies, pizza rolls, pink lemonade, then after awhile we went to speedway...i got a monster and a choco taco   she got a mocha monster and a oreo thing lol we walked back home when we past leonard house he came out and we talked for a little then larry and mary rose came home and we all talked then we went in and chilled and ate more food and stuff then i got bored of being inside so larry left to go put in a head unit in some dudes car and mary rose stayed sleeping kitty leonard and lyyod went outside, we cut down a tree...and i started throwing knifes at paint cans and blew 2 up lol its kinda fun then me and leonard started playing around and me and kitty started throwing a football back and fourth lol you should work on that throw babe lol... lyod was beating a traffic cone with a log for some reason then larry came back home and we all went insidde and chilled again..then me a larry went out to try to fix the atv so we pulled it out and started taking crap off so we didnt have a throttle anymore but we still had the cable so we got an idea of how to ride it so i grabed the cables with a pair of pliars and pulled the cables while larry steered lol it was hard but we got the hang of it so we started off up the street so when you have the throttle when its not broken you let of to shift up or down o since we didnt have that i had to lossen my pull of the cable so he could shift wich was kinda hard but i got better at it so we drove all the way around our area and every time we shifted up it would lag then backfire then accelerate lol it jerked was kinda cold out so i was freezing lol we saw kyle on our way back and stopped to talk for a second lol then we dove back...came back in chilled for a little and watched movies and then i walked kitty to my house to get picked up then we talked on the phone for the rest of the night until like 11 lol so over all it was a great day and im so happy i got to spend with the girl i love

my post of my jealousy

well since as long as i can remeber i was that guy i knew it and so did everyone else..i might sound concieted but yeah i was irresistable to everyone for some reason i could get anyone i wanted i was to good at it... i got what i wanted and then threw it away..and moved on i was such a big player i dont know why i did it but i did...if you ask people about me theyll say that im a player girls know me all over...i dont talk to them and none of them beleive ive changed but i have..this doesnt sound beleiveable but i made a list of girls that ive done stuf with and went out with and after i got past 90 i stopped counting because it made me feel bad...because i couldove kept adding names and there was a few i even forgot or didnt ever know there names  i have proof of all of them to becasue i can bring them its not good...and i guess after years of doing that i just wasnt that intresested ive felt like ive had it all and then i met agi and i had a somewhat serious relationship but thing was i wasnt...i cheated still and talked to whoever i wanted i didnt care i always told her what i did though becasue i didnt like lying about it...and i really regret doing it all and she knows i do becasue we fixed everything now but i havnt talked to her since we hung out i think it settled things with both of us finally kindal ike putting a lost sole to rest yeah...i feel alot better now...ive apoligized to most of the girls over time but i gave up after awhile because none of them believed me but i dont blame them...from how much i lied why should they?   but anyways after that horrible realtionship with agi...i know i said i loved her but im not sure what to call it...becasue theres no way i couldove loved her if i did i wouldove cared more maybe its just becasue she was like my frist real girlfreind i had strong feelings for someone that actually showed more feelings for me than anyone else ever did...but no i dont think it was love......

             there is only one person i love and that is asberry
  i met her and i knew from day a way it wasnt right..but i also did like her...becasue when i first saw her i told my freind that she was hot and i wanted her...they said you cant get her she has a bf and theyve been going out for awhile...right when they said that it was now a mission...i would get her at all costs...lucky for me everything when into place and worked out...i did everything for her not becasue i had to but becasue i wanted to i liked her so much she was perfect in my eyes there was a couple things that happened in the beginning that i was hurt by but never said anything about becasue i felt stupid..but it didnt stop my feelings for her         i really messed up with agi and i still apolize to this day but its over now everything is better now..

 we love eachother more than ever and always will <3 i love you asberry

Thursday, March 24, 2011

update (march 24)

well im sittin in media lit class and this weather has got me all messed up itll go from 80 degrees out super hot then start raining get cold snow then get super hot have a wtf? my body cant keep up with that so now i got a small cold blehh! o well plus i got some holes up in my mouth wich hurt really bad and i cant eat that much but i still do so it bleeds...hahah o well its super cold in this room my hands moves slow lol it always looks like someone jizzes all over this keyboard wich is kinds nasty lol...well anyways ive been pretty good for the most part apperently im doin alot better and i only have to take 6 classes at the least next year instead of 8 so ill get out at 12 wich it awesome execpt i hope i dont get put in a shit class that i really dont want and i swear ill kill someone if i have to go to ummer school this year i aint doin it no! i wont ill drop out of school before i do that again fuck yall...and anyways i miss my baby alot so i hope il get to se her today or tomaro since i dont have school tomaro i asked her to find out if i could come visit her at her school lol i dont see why not? bein off scgool is cool in all but some times i dont like it because im suck with nothing to do all day and all i can think about is what kinda stupid shit is my rents gonna try to make me do today or i wonder how im gonna get out of going to church on sunday and dammit how is it already 10 at night i have school tomaro ya  ouch my mother f'n tounge hurts i got a hot on the bottom of my tounge to...well i really dont have that much to talk about well if you wanna talk just comment me or something bye <3 love you babygirl hope your having a good day

Friday, March 18, 2011

just another day in the life

well todays friday but that doesnt mean anything because i always get bad news and it may not be to you but it is to me...yesterday i had to go to the chinese buffet with my grandparents mom and sis  thats wasnt so bad but i didnt feel like going.  and today my mom wants me to go to the basketball game tonight because she doesnt want to go alone and i dont feel like going to the game because sports are boring to me now ive guessed because nothing is new its been the same old thing forever..i like different sports that you can do on your own and its always skatebaording theres always new obstacles and no rules....boxing always a new person to fight and always different style of fighting well dad left yesterday to go to d.c. to watch basketball games and will be back on sunday..and my sister leaves today to go to cancun so ill just be chillen alone bored..and the stupidiest news is that my dads works schedule changes so i have to stay at school till 4 everyday....when i get out at 2:45 and 2:18 on wensday ya i dont feel like doin that   thats 10 hours at school ya im only seeing things get worse latlely bored i might blog next bell

Wednesday, March 16, 2011


haha well this morning when i was getting ready i looked this up cuz i was bored.. well anyways the website is blocked in school but   if you type  could zombies be real in google   the first link should say 5 scientific reasons a zombie apocolypse could actually happen click that link and read it..thats kinda scary considering some of those have actually been proven and they said nanobots will ehh...thats not going to be fun ...get guns loaded and your sights set lol....well anyways im sittin in this empty class with a crappy toshiba touch screen laptop..stupid tablets hahah...anways im not sure what to talk about i wish more people would comment me so ide have more things to talk about ..but i dont so that sucks...i wonder how mny people actually read my blog but dont comment lol probly none =(  o well


its all over =)

well i ended up hanging out with agi and its was different alot different and i liked it first she went home after dance and wrote quick directions to my house she mustove skipped one cuz she got lost lol so it took he a hour and a half to get here in the rain cuz she had to call me and i had to get on google maps from were she was and tell her how to get there from some random persons house lol...well anways i gave her directions all the way up to my street but she remembered where she was when she got closer lol...well i got in her car and we went and sat in olyplian club we made small talk and listened to dubstep....and i was woried and nervous at first for seeing her again but it ened up being ok we sat there for awhile talkin the she had to pee really bad so i told her how to go to speedway to pee so we went in but didnt buy anything lol then i decided to go to northgate despite the fact i didnt feel good i thought ide just give in cuz i didnt want to make her i went so we went in then went into nu image and went look at stuff then she saw insense and she was like omg! im getting some so she got 10 different scents and a purple insense tray thing its was pretty so we walked out and and went in some other stores then she was like shit...i forgot to buy my lip ring so we wlked back in and bought it lol...well there was nothing really  hot topic got changed around and was crap....spencers is normal as usual lol, and journeys took out nikes so that crap so nothgate is pretty much garbage lol...well anyways we walked back into her car and listened to music and burned insense in her car then we went home and i gave her 10 dollars cuz of all the stuff and then she called me and i gave her directions back home and it only took like 30 mins to get home because she actually followed the directions good lol.....well anyways..wht changed is it felt so different everything ws completly friendly is like we never went out no problems no bad memories or akward silences or remember whens lol...everything was like we were old best freinds and im so glad that the last time i see her its on good terms i feel like i finally patched up a bad part in my life i feel different now i feel happier like i dont feel wierd , im not mad anymore and im hoping that this changes things =)   i love my girlfreind more than anything and now she has nothing to worry about becasue everything is completly about her now =) and yes i will go to the mall with you but im not allowed to go anywere tonight because my mom got mad at me for something lol o well ill call you when i get home 

Monday, March 14, 2011

im bored

well i dont really know what to talk about ... i was going to explain how crazy i am lol but i guess you guys dont need to know about all that...well i got a new follower but i dont think its a person lol idk its not like theyl talk t me anyways no one ever comments or talks to me lol
        thats ok im getting used to it...well im going to explain this because i guess its time thats we really talk about it and i dont know the outcome of this post but i think itll make things wierd...
    well anyways agatha...the girl i was with for 4 years and alot of stuff happened with her thats mesed alot of things up and i really liked her and i can never get her out of my head...its one of those things that your stuck with that really made a lasting mpression on you and i want it to go away but then again i dont..weve never completley stopped talkin to eachother weve said we hated eachother and were not talking numeruous times but we always end up talking again i want her to be gone so i can move on with my life and not have problems but then again we adults we have to be mature about this kind of thing we cant run away from things always yes i understand what this and you have to have this in a relationship and if you cant trust the person you love then it isnt real ..i know i said i wouldnt see her or talk to her but...yes weve moved on we dont have feelings like that for eachother were both in love with someone...but we still want to hang out becuase weve gotten to that point were all love feelings and attractions have slowly died out and now we feel for eachother and we want to be freinds we know that it wont be easy at first but  it will get better...theres no reason for eithers mate to get mad or ealous if we trust eachother then it will be ok...kitty has seen her ex bf alot since they broke up even they hung out when we were together when i wasnt there but i didnt get to hang out with agi because she lived to far away...then kitty and her ex hung out when i was there because theyd come around then he brought a freind over a couple months ago and i havnt seen agi but one time since we broke up and in that one time ive messed and it was was a mistake we didnt think anything would happened but we kissed we didnt mean to but it happened its over now though and life shouldnt end just ffom one mistake and if are relationship in trouble just because want to hang out then idk about this...were not going to do anything we are going to hang in a freindly manner and not all day she will come over and we will sit in olyplian club and talk about life not about eachother and our past about the now and everything will go over smoothly and it will be a one time thing..........i know it seems like im going crazy over her and like omg i miss her i love her ahh but no  im not making a big deal of this becasue i want her back but becasue you dont trust need to trust me i trust you...its normal for me to get mad because of who i am but im not getting mad at you so much and i trust you whenever you go some were....i love you and only you and nothing change that i promise..<3 and when this day comes if it does i want you to know that everythig will be fine i prmise

new read links

you should read this i did

       this link answers the question     and this next paragragh i know its alot but it makes sense    i read about trust to and i understand it all but know you need to and this is a form of trust

When a cou­ple breaks up on ami­ca­ble terms the most com­mon phrase uttered at the end of the awk­ward break up con­ver­sa­tion is “I hope we can still be friends.” Excuse me while I choke on irony. Really friends? Friends don’t say things that break my heart, cause me to cry uncon­trol­lably and make me want to punch them in the throat, but I digress. In my expe­ri­ence friend­ship with an ex is only pos­si­ble if A) there are absolutely NO resid­ual feel­ings for one another other than pla­tonic feel­ings. B) enough time has passed that the hurt caused by the break up has become a dis­tant mem­ory. C) both par­ties are mature, actu­ally want a pla­tonic friend­ship with one another and have no plans to rekin­dle the flame. Once both exes have reached this point they can begin to start a friend­ship. And D) how could I for­get, the most impor­tant part, there is no more sex­ual ten­sion. This is by far the most dif­fi­cult part to accom­plish. It’s hard to go from see­ing this per­son naked to ask­ing how things are going with their new sig­nif­i­cant other. As long as you have A, B and C you can suc­ceed at meet­ing up with your ex with min­i­mal ten­sion. If D is not pos­si­ble avoid alcohol.
When ini­ti­at­ing plans to spend time with an ex as a friend there are some ground rules that should be fol­lowed for the first few times you spend time together. The first, do not make plans to hang out in the evening. It will feel like a date and a date with an ex turned friend is not the feel­ing you want to go for. Sec­ond, make sure you meet at the loca­tion. Do not meet at your place or theirs. It will no doubt bring back mem­o­ries of the rela­tion­ship. Third, set spe­cific time para­me­ters for hang­ing out and make plans with some­one else after. That way if it gets too awk­ward you have a way to escape. Fourth, don’t wear any­thing that has sen­ti­men­tal value to your past rela­tion­ship with said ex. I once had cof­fee with an ex and made the mis­take of wear­ing a neck­lace he had given me and the next thing you know it’s “You wore that cause you still love me didn’t you?”
The ideal sit­u­a­tion would be cof­fee or lunch in a fairly pub­lic place that holds no sen­ti­men­tal value to your you or your ex. Alco­hol is a slip­pery slope when it comes to spend­ing time with your ex. Yes it can calm your nerves if you are feel­ing uneasy about the sit­u­a­tion but it can also bring back feel­ings of nos­tal­gia or attrac­tion for your ex. One drink becomes two and then three and before you know it you and your ex are talk­ing about old times and mak­ing drunk poor choices and every­thing gets more com­pli­cated than it was before. I’m just saying…
If you or your ex are dat­ing some­one new when you hang out for the first time, try to keep the details at a min­i­mum or avoid the sub­ject. Even if you are both over one another and have moved on, it’s still a bit of an awk­ward thing to dis­cuss. In time you will be able to talk about your new rela­tion­ships with your ex. My ex even com­forted me when I broke up with the man I dated after him. But it took time for us to get to that point. If he had told me he was dat­ing some­one new the first time I saw him post break up, I’d prob­a­bly burst into tears in the mid­dle of the restau­rant. When hang­ing out with an ex for the first time no doubt the con­ver­sa­tion will turn to another sticky sub­ject; the break up. Try to avoid the sub­ject at all costs. What’s done is done, it’s in the past there is no use dis­cussing some­thing that was obvi­ously painful for one or both par­ties. Blame doesn’t need to be assigned, just let it go.
When part­ing ways with an ex after the first hang out a quick hug is all you need. There is a mal­adroit way to han­dle the sit­u­a­tion and there is a tact­ful way. Be brief and com­mit this to mem­ory: “It was great to see you, (insert name of your ex). I’m so glad we can remain friends. Let’s do this again some­time soon.” That’s it. Unless you don’t want to see them any­time soon and hang­ing out with them reminded you that the only rea­son you could spend time with them before was cause at least there was the poten­tial for sex, well then com­mit this to mem­ory. “It was good to see you, (insert name of ex). I’m glad there are no hard feel­ings. Take care.”
Start­ing a friend­ship with an ex is the begin­ning of the new rela­tion­ship. It’s not a down­grade from your past rela­tion­ship or a con­tin­u­a­tion. In some cases a cou­ple wasn’t friends before they dated so begin­ning a friend­ship is com­pletely new ter­ri­tory. My most recent ex and I were not friends before we dated and now we are good friends. It a com­pletely dif­fer­ent ball game. Bound­aries have to be estab­lished, pet names have to be erased from your ver­nac­u­lar, cer­tain activ­i­ties are out of the ques­tion, etc. A new kind of trust has to be estab­lished as the friend­ship devel­ops. If you and your ex were friends before the roman­tic rela­tion­ship then it is a lot eas­ier to return to a state of normalcy.
The most impor­tant thing in start­ing a friend­ship with an ex is patience. A real friend­ship like the one you have with your pla­tonic friends is not going to hap­pen over night with an ex. In fact you may hang out a few times and find that it’s too dif­fi­cult to see them. Time has to pass and wounds have to heal. I have stood in my exes liv­ing room and sud­denly begun to cry while attempt­ing to watch a foot­ball game with him on TV over pizza and beer. Now I could watch a foot­ball game with him with his new girl­friend and not bat an eye­lash. Time, matu­rity and patience are the most vital ingre­di­ents when befriend­ing an ex.
In the end, see­ing your ex for the first time after a break up is a tricky sit­u­a­tion and equally uncom­fort­able for both par­ties involved. But when han­dled with matu­rity and mutual respect it can be the start of a beau­ti­ful friend­ship. Or it can be a won­der­ful reminder of why that per­son is your ex.

graff update and life

well im posting a little earlier today because i dont have class cuz the kids have ogts and i dont cuz i already took mine lol but anyways..ive been on vandalsquad alot more latleyi like it cuz im gettin back into painting and iguess ive done some ok peices not really i think i was the best when i was in gunsk  i really did alot of good stuff in there i always painted the best with reycs  me and him did the best collabs. he was always fun to talk to..but he hasnt been on for along time...he works to much lol...its all good k=though gotta pay them bills lol...anyways i dont get on vandalsquad c2m depot that often but every time i do everyone knows me lol ...i guess im one of those old kids everyone knows lol well to be honest i am i was on the site in 05 when it came out lol bored im just sitin in math class with a laptop ...

        so alot of stuff happened with japan thats not good...earthquake, tsunami, whirlpool, fires, explosions, floods, they are just in a huge mess i think this morning they said 10000 people were dead/missing thats not good =( well anyways i guess i dont have much to talk about really

Thursday, March 10, 2011

What do you write?:  sevnd
What crew do you rep?: sbk, bhms, oe
Rack or buy: eithers fine lol
You a toy: haha i kill them
Destruction,rep, or just art?:  all of the above
Are you a tagger??:   hmm sometimes i like throwies
Ever been in fights with rival writers?: nah ive been in fights while trying to write 
What city you rep??:  cinci
Krylon or Aresol?:  lol montana
Certain paint or dont even matter?:  doesnt matter foreal but depends on what you doing
Ever ran from the police?: hahah yes
You ever battled?: yep different ways though
Ever hit a train?:  um back when i used to hang with my friend ya cuz he lived realy close
Ever been dissed?: ya lol
Have you dissed another writer?: yes haha
Do you love graffiti?:  yes i really do <333
Graffiti or $10000000000000000??: considering thats not a real number and our country doesnt even have that much in circulation ill say graffiti
Hip-hop or rock?: both
White or black?: hmm black
Fat kap or skinnys?: depends on wat u doin bit ide say skinnys for tags and outlines...but if u wanna destroy get fats
How long have you been skating for?  hmm im not sure for years i know that
  lazer flips maybe i really those
  it was corey duffel, but i also like lem villemin
  hahah not anymore
  nope i never really do i just start skating
  haha yes there a girls that are professional
  well ive had so many im not sure
  that im not sure of either
  the love of it people always stiving for that next level
  hm depends on who you are lol and what you think is good cuz i can do alot
  um thats a good question
  o man...the thing that ended me i kickflipped a 7 and broke me knee
  i love clean tre flips on the ground.   kickflips down steps, big spin to boardslides,   hardflips off ledges
  hm lol idk i can skate alot
  um well ive landed every trick at least once but i suck at hardflips haha
  dc probly even though thats were i ended it
  anything really i dont care
  well considering i dont have a board my own right now  i guess you could say a broke toy machine board um...rob drydek thunder trucks rouge status kind..and i think spitfire wheels? idk i bought new everything and broke it within 2 weeks so i dont remeber
  Can you?


  hahah no...who cant?
  to tell you the truth i goes back and forth with me i always land my kickflips but sometimes ill do a clean ass kickflips then other days theyll be sloppy
  who cant manual? lol but ya i can manual for days haha
   i hate them but yes
   yes easiest grind besides boarslide witch i hate

 snatched this from kitty i kept her colors and everything lol

status: taken forever <3
favorite colors: black, dark red
favorite band: hmm i think is to hard for me lol
hobbies: graffiti, skateboarding, my girlfriend lol ;)
favorite flower: i dont pay attention tht much i like alot but idont know names
favorite consanent: idk lol 
favorite vowel: o
favorite weather: hmm i like warm sunny day not to hot,   the cool mornings not cold...and i like storms
favorite drink: root beer
favorite coffee: hm i dont have one
favorite snack: hot fries
favorite candy:  sour straws
favorite ice cream: chocolate almond i guess
favorite language: idk i dont have one
favorite anime: ehh i dont watch it
favorite gesture:  middle finger
after highschool plan: life
     well i didnt realize how stupid this quiz was until i got through it i dont do or pay attention to any of this stuff  blah im just bored

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

life update (march 8)

hey well this morning my friend tony came to school early witch is surprising and i said what are gonna do now lol? he said lets go outside to smoke well at first i was thinking nah im good but then i thought about it and was like wth why not...we went outside and piled in my freinds truck and another friend got in so we had 4 people in the front sitting on eachother smoking it was ok at first but then first bell i got sick and sat in detention room until 2nd bell i think the cig made me sick i got to stop smoking every time i do now i get sick it sucks...well anyways alot of suff has hapened started painting again good stuff has happened with my baby...

       we decided to change some stuff up were going to renew our virginities for eachother and forget our past ever might seem stupid to others but to us it will be good and ill love it ...

its very cold in this room because the school is to cheap to heat the whole school so some rooms they leave the air conditioning or nothing on at all so its freezing and you cant change it because they have a code...

               i got some school work done witch is good thatl pull my grade up alot witch is cool because i need it...we have mass tomaro wich is not cool because i dont like it and its ash wensday blah...

 im bored im just rambaling on about nothing really hmm i wish i had more followers still it would be cool if someone read my blog ..o well i dont have freinds hahah ...i know i dont have freinds because me and kittys pushed all our freinds away except for a few but she stills has freinds..the only person i talk to is kitty ...but the difference is when you go to an all guys school guys dont really feel like talking that much...but when you go to a coed school people are more like to talk i know she says she doesnt have friends all the time but she does...she has more freinds then i do...and people that would talk to her on anything if she posted a status people would like and coment it....ive posted alot of stauses and nothing...i dont really have real freinds no one asks me to hang out anymore i just to be asked to parties and pople used to call me to do things or invite with them now they dont...people invite kitty places but she doesnt want to...its ok though ill live haha i have the only person that really means anything to me anyways...but all im saying is its in a persons nature to have people around them and sometimes i get lonely and that i do everything for myself like writing these i just wished i atleast had freinds online but i dont even have that lol  larry was my bff but hes never around. leonard just sits at home so im bored there to...and thats pretty much it i dont have any other real freind kyle comes over but we done do anything    so kittys the only person that really interested in me...

       i just dont really understand why my life took such a big turn its not that bad because i was headed down the wrong path anyways but mabye its not me...mabye its everyone else...i guess it just goes to show what todays society is like now a days i stopped doin drugs, stopped whoring myslef out stop breaking the laws and doing stupid stuff and people slowly stopped being around i guess everyone today is so interested in drugs and trying to get with everyone they can and partying as much as possible.  that i just didnt want to be a part of that   well im gonna end this post cuz i gotta advertizement project ot do so bye lol ill post later

Friday, March 4, 2011

no reason to get mad just a freestyle

i remeber back when she played me like her favorite song and all the mothafuckers just stood round and sang along, all the people behind me i was on the frontline but when i turned to regroup they already left me behind, i was alone did my drugs till they was gone  and just when i i thought i found lucky clover bitch hit the replay and it started all over.. ...........ya dude was rappin and he told me to spit something and that came out it was pretty sick lol

its in my blood

skateboarding no matter what i do i cant stop i never could completly stop well this a short post but anyways kyle, larry, and tim came home and started skating...well i waned to skate i grabbed kitty board and skated it i didnt do much cuz u cant do much on that thing i 180 the big hole in hunters drive way wich is impressive on kittys board lol i did a couple flip tricks witch is also impressive on kittys board expescially a 360 flip, fakie big spin to manual, bs flip, a clean ass frontside 180 lol and probly soemthing else but i dont remember those tricks arennt hard but no one else can do it on kittys board excpet me lol ...well anyways the day before that i asked kittys what shed do if i broke her board and she said she didnt know what she do well when i was ksating with them they we trying to do fakie fs flips and i was like im so good at those and i wanted to showoff so knowing me i went to big for kittys board and i popped and flicked tht shit caught it and slammed it and all you heard was a crack but it didnt break in half lol i didnt mean to lol so its cracked now but its ok lol shes not that mad lol she was going to get new one anyways lol  and hell i might to cuz i dont like skating but i do like do fliptricks and playing skate because i dont lose lol

love will keep us together

well last night i got to see kitty and it as fun she gave me my valentines present wich was a little late but its ok lol, so anyways we hung out with leonard for awhile and watched viva la bam old episodes, and then fail videos haha then got bored and tried to go home but had to leave my we chilled outside and we sat for awhile then i got hyper and wantd to play around and i thought we should wrestle because she told me before that she liked we started to then i got her into and she was getting mad so we kept going and after so intense pushin lol we kissed for awhile then i held her down but i hurt her witch i felt bad about but it was ok she said she was after we got up she said do you wanna go again and idk what it was but something clicked in my mind that changed me im not going to tell what happened but i wasnt me and i almost really screwed up bad...but she calmed me down and snapped me out of it...ill just tell you that stufff happened to me that gives me mixed personalities and its not good...and this one is lets say a monster..  and i hate it...but she can snap me out of it if she just tells me its ok and hold me...and im so happy she can or ide be f'd    well anyways after i was all calmed down i freaked out like most perople would if that happned to them ...and i fell like a little bitch but i cried for the first time in along time and it was infront of her...i didnt mean to do was an accident and i wasnt myself idk how many times i apologized..well anyways its ok now were ok and thats all that matters to me  whenever i get like that my body gets really weak because my whole body changes every muscule in my body tightens and it makes my skin feel like it gonna rip and my heart beats r wierd and it i breahte weird and it a big stress on my body  more than what a normal person should take and it hurts my brain after that i feel like i got hit my a truck and a anvil got dropped on my chest i know that sounds over dramatic but it really does..right now my heart and chest really hurts and i havnt said one word to anyone since ive gotten to school...i think i get so sore because my body realeases so much adrenaline that it hards for my body to control and my body can do more then its regular limit and it really is scary because nothing about it is me except its my body...its not my feelings, its not my eyes, its not my muscules, its not my voice, its like i have to people in side of me and i doin twice the work i breath, heartbeats, and move for two i need to rest and hopefully i feel better so it was pretty scare to say the least .....but like i said were ok now and were going to see eachother again today i love baby muah

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

nevermind no rap lol

eh i started to but i dont feel like thinkin of ryhmes any anybody thats reads these help me get followers because i dont have a facebook anymore or nothing lol and i dont use twitter anymore so i cant tell people so yall should tell people haha jk i know no one reads this and it doesnt matter hahah     im so bored i gotta history test but i only got one of the sheets o well...i get ou early today but not realy because i get out at 2:18 but wait till sometime after 3  its gay o well peace

another random pointless post haha

wel i just got in the class and im bored so this will unbore me mabye so anways yesterday  felt kinda good out so kyle came over to skate i told him i dont skate no more lol but i rode the board around while he practiced lazer flips lol and he told me how to do them and i tried even though it hurt really bad hah i almost caught it frist try lol and then i bs flipped perfect and i was like i wonder if i can do them stationary so i did 5 in a row it was funny but my kne hurt like crap lol and then we broke kyles board... hmm im just realizing im just posting pretty much for myself lol and kitty when she feels like reading my nonsense lol....but no one reads these i have no followers lol...but anyways    ive been messing around with my drums again latley hah im still good...nothing really exciting has happened in awhile lol   i might jinx myself for saying this but my ibs really hasnt acted up latley like when i was in church it didnt hurt when i left on the way there or through the whole church  but now that i just said that my stomach will go ham hahah  butjust because it hasnt hurt in awhile it will mabye sometime soon because ibs goes away for alittle bit then comes back full force and my stomach kinda hurts now so whats happening with me not much..t others i have no life anymore but to me im fine with it  
                           this is my day
                  wake up txt kitty take forever to get ready then leave go to school depending what day it is lol if its a day  i go to math sit there and listen to crap lol, then go to media lit and blog and do homework, then go to religion have quizes and sit there and go to lunch, the history and take notes the whole time lol    
                         if its a b day then i go to enlish and do nothing but talk to all my freinds haha, then go to compution animation and play around in there, the cadd class and sit there bored drawing houses, then chemistry and play around in there doing nothing...ok the anyways after either one of those days ill do te same thing after school go home then either go to larrys or call kitty right away then get on the computer and talk for the rest of the night and then go to sleep   repeat...   
              on fridays ill do the same thing but when i get home ill go to larrys and mess around until like 12 or 1 and then walk home and kitty will already be asleep then ill stay up for another hour thinkin of what i want to do then there will be nothing then ill go to sleep,   on saturdays ill wake up go to larrys around 10 then wont do anything again and come home around 11 talk to kitty mabye...then wake up sunday either i go to church or i dont but ill hang out then to or most likely stay home the whole day and talk to kitty to go back to school hahah     
         wow this is a long boring post hahah mabye ill write a rap off the top of my head ill do it ina diff post haha