Monday, March 14, 2011

im bored

well i dont really know what to talk about ... i was going to explain how crazy i am lol but i guess you guys dont need to know about all that...well i got a new follower but i dont think its a person lol idk its not like theyl talk t me anyways no one ever comments or talks to me lol
        thats ok im getting used to it...well im going to explain this because i guess its time thats we really talk about it and i dont know the outcome of this post but i think itll make things wierd...
    well anyways agatha...the girl i was with for 4 years and alot of stuff happened with her thats mesed alot of things up and i really liked her and i can never get her out of my head...its one of those things that your stuck with that really made a lasting mpression on you and i want it to go away but then again i dont..weve never completley stopped talkin to eachother weve said we hated eachother and were not talking numeruous times but we always end up talking again i want her to be gone so i can move on with my life and not have problems but then again we adults we have to be mature about this kind of thing we cant run away from things always ..trust yes i understand what this and you have to have this in a relationship and if you cant trust the person you love then it isnt real ..i know i said i wouldnt see her or talk to her but...yes weve moved on we dont have feelings like that for eachother were both in love with someone...but we still want to hang out becuase weve gotten to that point were all love feelings and attractions have slowly died out and now we feel for eachother and we want to be freinds we know that it wont be easy at first but  it will get better...theres no reason for eithers mate to get mad or ealous if we trust eachother then it will be ok...kitty has seen her ex bf alot since they broke up even they hung out when we were together when i wasnt there but i didnt get to hang out with agi because she lived to far away...then kitty and her ex hung out when i was there because theyd come around then he brought a freind over a couple months ago and i havnt seen agi but one time since we broke up and in that one time ive messed and it was bad..it was a mistake we didnt think anything would happened but we kissed we didnt mean to but it happened its over now though and life shouldnt end just ffom one mistake and if are relationship in trouble just because want to hang out then idk about this...were not going to do anything we are going to hang in a freindly manner and not all day she will come over and we will sit in olyplian club and talk about life not about eachother and our past about the now and everything will go over smoothly and it will be a one time thing..........i know it seems like im going crazy over her and like omg i miss her i love her ahh but no  im not making a big deal of this becasue i want her back but becasue you dont trust me...you need to trust me i trust you...its normal for me to get mad because of who i am but im not getting mad at you so much and i trust you whenever you go some were....i love you and only you and nothing change that i promise..<3 and when this day comes if it does i want you to know that everythig will be fine i prmise

1 comment:

  1. you saw her more than once at her job after the incident at the movies and said you loved her each time you went...each time you said you were over her, you saw her again and then you loved her again...thats why im so scared..

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