Wednesday, December 15, 2010

smokey the bear? (firefighter) lol

well i was on webcam with kitty a couple days ago and i spilled somethin on my laptop and i tried cleanin it up but i left it on wen i went to go get a shower and wen i came back it was off so i tried to turn it back on but it was fried so i said o well and plugged it up for the night..well later i smelled something and jumped outa bed and saw my laptop smoking it was the battery it was freind and since it plugged up it was about to catch on fire so if it wasnt for my good nose my house would of burned down and i wouldove died =D lol ya..
but i dont have a laptop now....o well ill just but a new one haha

Dec 15 just another quick update

well my plan worked out ok i hope the second part of my plan works out ehhh im scared thtll itll work but get caught in the end o well well find out...
  i went atv again like ive done for three days in a row already haha it so fun but anyways the day before yesterday i rode the atv will leonard and llyod i was teaching llyod how to drive better haha hes kinda bad he made us flip so i taught him how to turn better (drift) and how to shift  and use your body wieght ...and then larry got home and he made mary rose drive his car over to olypian club witch is a big park so we good drive the atv there lol so me and larry drove the atv around while she drove the car
then me and larry rode around then we switched of and i let her ride with larry while i drifted larrys car around in the snow and icey gravel haha without traction control on ehh lol  kinda hard to control but it was fun lol  
   yesterday i rode the atv again with leonard and llyod and we drug it over to olypian club again drove around for a bit then on are way back it got stuck a couple times so i got mad and picked up the whole atv and and threw it over the fallen tree and shit lol  i think it was anger adrenaline haha but we got it back threw but later tht night my arm hurt and still does hahah o well

me and kitty need to talk hah we had another disagreement ok...i know i said we never fight but it seems as if were starting to? its probly my fault but i cant help...things happen that remind me of old situations and i dont want them to happen again so i get mad and try to stop it witch leads to arguements lol
  ya idk if anyone understands jsut a problem i have  but after we talk tonight well be fine again lol muah baby i love you  i cant wait for are oldskool date lol

Monday, December 13, 2010

life update (Dec 13)

well it snowed last night had a 2 hour delay but no cancaled school ehh it was expected we rarely get off lol
thats ok tho are classes are only an hour long today and the schedule is weird the classesgo block 1 block 3 then we have the lunch bells then block 2 then block 4 then leave lol.         ya so me and asberry are fantastic as usual lol we never fight for all of you that think we do nope...we have disagreements but rarely  and we we talk well have converstations that arent fights as most of you would take it just talks on how to fix or betters ourselvs most of you dont know about that and that it is possible to talk without fighting about nothing ... lol
anyways christmas is soon lol and so is my birthday on Dec 18 not excited lol i dont like birthdays that much
and i dont like gettings presents its not that im one of those grumpy people its just i dont like it lol.  if i want something ill get it for myself i dont like wen people get me things just a random fact lol

    still as always asberry is the only person that reads my stuff...hi baby  i love you lol how is your day going
  and if anyways else reads this hello hah
its so cold in this room but were not allowed to wear coats in class so we have to freeze and another thing is that are school is so cheap that they dont want to waste any of there money so thaey just keep the temperture at a place were it spends the least money so it feels like the air conditioner is on and the school doesnt give the teachers the key to change the temperture because they dont want them crankin the heat up or anythings becasue they dont want to waste school..
its not just snow wheather its also atv dridt weather lol last night we brought the atv home and rode it in the dark after everything turned to ice and the streets were covered so we rode around for a bit drifting we already wrecked lolwe bothed flipped of of it and rolled the atv because we slid sideways and hit a dry-ish part and the wheels caught we both hit the ground hard haha but its all good

and are teacher for this class isnt here so we have switch out subs haha first was a old guy and hes a science teacher and the second teahcer just walked in and its the new hot teacher and all the guys looked and were like O.O 8===D

hahah bored im thinkin of a new plan i think i got one it might work well find out =/ ehh lol i hope so
and my family go to christmas eve mass witch i hate becasue thats the time witch everyone everywere decides to go to church for no reason jesus! lol

im hoping i get my xbox back soon i need to renew my live acount lol it ran out theni gotta practice up on my drifting again i hope i still want to..
thts the problem with me if i do something alot then stop for a couple days then i wont care about wen i go to do it again. lol like my vandalsquad i stopped for awhile and now i neve do it ive been fuckin around the last couple days tho i might get back into it depends lol   and i started playin a online game called leage of legends but i started drifting on forza and i dont play that anymore then i difted everyday of forza got my xbox taken and now im not really in the mood haha jeeez im so indicisive. i ramble about stupid stuff no one cares about o well it real life situations hah its interesting sometimes  mabye i should get more pyschical with this and actually put pics and stuff up like my baby but thats to much work i dont have the patients for it haha i might down the road..
well this is getting a bit long and boring so ill stop writing haha bye love you

o well sorry for my shitting spelling and stuff i dont actually pay attention or revise my work i just keep typing hahah o well

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

bleh O.o

quite of bit of little random posts today ehh? lol well that good ole freind of mine ibs is kicking in lol
joy right ...nooo
anyways school starts at 7:45 ive been in the bathroom from 7:47 to 8:40 then stayin class then went to second block and went to the bathroom  i that block witch im currently in and my stomach still hurts so im probly going to go again during 3rd block and i hope i dont have to go during 4th because that teacher gives you 3 bathroom passes a quarter and if you use them up you cant go..but if you dont use them the passes go toward your grade for three points so i try not to use them ...ehh

random quick fact

well ive talked about that club computer animation nd about us making a game  well weve come  up with a project were making a fatasy computer from scrath were salvaging parts from differnt computers and games systems and were going to make a huge gaming computer it will take along time and probly quite of bit om money and hard work but its still a fun project that were going to try our best at
if you want to know more about it comment

im SICK..of this IBS

well things is i have something that i dont really here about anyone else having. and yes its pretty embarrasing but ide thought i share it anyways.. i have IBS irretiable bowel syndrome    and what that is. is things can upset my stomach very easily and it really is killing me (its kinda whats my blog name refers to) because i use to be a really energetic lets go everywere kind of guy but now not at all im a stay at home leave me alone kind of guy..and this is due to ibs     it didnt always be like this it started mabye a year and a half ago but got worse as time progressed.. its not so much of what i eat its just when i leave or go to places i feel uncomfortable at  when i go to places before i even leave i worry about is there a bathroom there or will i be able to use it will it be lock what will i do...ever thing runs through my mind  ive been going to the same church my whole life and ive went to the school of that church from k through 8th grade so im very familer with it and i know everone there so im not uncomfortable but latley i dont want to go becasue that church has one bathroom for everyone with one toilet so its not like i can stay in there so my stomach hurts and i worry so i get all kinds of sick this happens i go really anywere anymore and i hate it i would do anything to try to get rid of it....worse thing is my parents dont really believe in it  they say its all in my head because when they ask me to go places i dont want to..not because i dont feel like it but becasue i dont want to get sick and i worry so they think im just trying to get out of going but its not in my head it happens were ever i go and with whoever im with and theres no cure for it  the doctors just say well there really nohing we can do youll have to live with it...i dont want to live  with i hate it so much... you dont understand no one does mabye others whove had it would but egular people wouldnt   most people like my parents say whats the problems go to the bathroom then move on...i wish it was that easy but its not i worry before i get there i get sick while im there ill go the bathroom and ill stay being sick until i leave and get home...its ruinign my life i dont go anywere with freinds anymore i refuse to ride buses in fear that i might get sick on it..i wish there was some way to fix it but ive looked up everthing and to be honest it might be in my head now to but only becasue its affected me for so long that i cant stop thinking about so im constantly sick if anyone reads this please help me...ugh

ok fair? (not meant to be mean)

ok well im not mad at kitty so if you freak out ill will kick your teeth out.  but its not a fight or a arguement i just want to know how you feel
                i can tell well kitty lies its pretty easy and i know shes lying whens she says she doesnt think guys are hot because thats impossible do to the fact that everyone finds things attractive in life its just how it works, no might not like them or love them but yes there pretty, and people cant deny that
well anyways my point is  ive said who i think is hot   and those people are celebrities people that i will never meet or touch so there no harm   such as victoria justice  and adriana lima yes those are top on my list..but thing is kitty freaks out over it  like when ever victoria justice pops up on tv shell get upset or if i talk about them shell get mad. im not saying kitty ur ugly i want them and i wanna fuck them i saying there pretty im not trying to hurt her feelings or anythings just complimenting them.    i still only love kitty and shes the only person for me i dont cheat or talk to other girls and she knows were i am at all times because im on the phone with her 24/7 and i never leave and she even notices when were out that i never look at other girls..
                 anyways the thing is i say there pretty she gets mad  but when ive shown her guys like eric backman and ville valo and stuff shell say there hot but will get deffensive and upset when i get mad
       but the difference is when i say there pretty thats all i say when i show kitty shes like O.O rapes and will say things like i hope they dont come to town or i feel bad for wanting them?  wtf really never have i said that about tori or lima so why is she getting mad..idk anyways everyone will prob side with kitty guys thats what happens

                  even though i know i wrote not meant to be mean and ive explained this i know itll still ruin kittys days and shell be upset and think to much     so dont i only love you baby i promise and you no that much <3

Monday, November 22, 2010

random (mordeth13)

i dont know if any of you are interested but there is a guy on youtube named mordeth13  or m13  he is a guy that rides is motorcycle around taiwan vlogging about random stuff it actually pretty interesting because the stuff he talks about are real and funny plus you get to explore taiwan through his eyes and see whats the culture like over there witch i like alot. so if you guys want to check it out type in mordeth13 on youtube and watch his vids...also hes a gamer lol and a raver and stuff like that haha so ya go watch it its pretty cool

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a young designer

well i have good news...i dont like to brag...but i do sometimes not on purpose lol
  but anyways i was started in a photoshop class were i learned about everything u can do in photoshop..then i was in a computer animation, graphic design class. and now im in a computer achitecture and 3d modeling class.. in my 3d modeling class are asignment was to make a room well i made a whole house   3 floors a pool on the deck a working garage door, a porsche and the whole house is tectured inside and out making it look realistic..the teacher loved it so. me, tommy, and mark decided to make a game a zombie apocolypse game so now we got a liscence to have the program for free at our house because were presidents of the club and were making are own game so once we finish the game we can sell it to be a real game so ill keep putting up details later lol see ya ask me if you have in questions

Thursday, November 18, 2010

a typical vandal..

well you all know i love graffiti,  but most people just see it as plain vandilism well if you see a bright colorful peice of art on the side of a abondoned building dont just turn in digust actually take to the time to observe it, imagine the techinque the movement of the letters the variations of colors.   mabye think deeper try to think of a meaning how that person was feeling.. mabye that person has problems mabye there suffereing from addictions, mabye there family has problems the people that do graffiti arent just dirty poor kids who steal paint and go out just to destroy peoples property..actually believe it or not nowadys it not poor kids at all, its actually middle class kids in the suburbs that get tired of the same old routine everyday and want to stand out get noticed..
but im getting off topic of why i started this post.. lol  well there is a blog called queen city discoveries and i look at it often it college kids that go around and take pictures of old historic abandoned buildings and make findings that normal everyday people wouldnt even imagine was there. and i love it i love to feeling of going into somewere that no one has people for years and finding things that no one new about..
 i like exploring i like getting to places that no one would think about.
  when i see graffiti i see it as beutiful peices of art. a free musuem. the people that took the time to paint that had the same amount of passion in there work as famous works of art that you find in musuems

now i will admit that not all graffiti is good there are people that are refered to as "toys" witch is kids that understand nothing at all about graffiti and just find a can of paint in there shed and go out and paint on anything they damn well really does upset me lol  example if you go out and spray paint you name in jagged block letters on a fence in someone backyard..heres a hint   if i see you do that you better run cuz i will beat you and cross you.. and dont think im mean  cuz if anything writers that knows a thing or two about anything sees you i can garantee will do the same so be careful on what you do. 
TIPS FOR NEW WRITERS: well if you are interested in starting graffiti i understand you have to start somewere and if you dont want a paint can cracking your skull and then swallowing paint then i suggest you read this.  
   i once started it out to but i made sure i studied up on what everything was. i practiced on paper for years. and when it came time for me to get balls to actually go out and paint i played it safe i stuck in places that i knew no one would have a problem with.
 such as walls in woods and sewer drains places that no one would care (practice walls) to get you style down
 after a couple years of practicing you move out  to walls and what not
if you are intersted just comment and ask me anything you wanna know

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

random things

so im in my life skills class we do nothing but im failing it so we do haha, i just dont ...anyways the kid next to me got his keys changed around on his keyboard and the top row of keys says gofuckpenis hahah got me weak....anyways

i play videos games alot lol  i mostly play modern warfare 2. im ok i guess i good be better lol
i like playing forza 2 alot its a racing game and you can make your own cars and me and tommy are making a drift team on there   if anyone wants to be cool go get a used copy of forza2 it only costs 5 dollars lol (xbox360) my gamertag is NiCk0t1ne  i play gta 4 online cuz thats always fun 

well ya so i just looked at kittys blog about how a model thing came to her school and said they like her...funny how the day before i said why dont you model you should model anyways lol
      ya i made that happen lol

i miss my gma =(  shes not dead or anything i just havnt seen her in forever it feels like i guess ill see her on thanksgiving

i love kitty haha shes amazing but you guys already no that. 

no one reads my blog or comments me...i am unloved =( lol o well so anyways im not sure wat to talk about i guess ill post later see ya

Friday, November 5, 2010


well i guess myself is not the only thing i should talk about lol
ill talk about experiences to 

so one time not long ago me and frein tommy were thinking of something to was friday and we had all night his dad was out of town so he didnt have to wory about anything.   one of our freinds had a scheduled fight against some kid and alot of people were gonna meet up at the park to watch it so our plan was to go there...
so when we got there we were the only ones there so waited, then 3 of are other friends showed up and we started calling around and found out the fight was canceled so after alittle drifting in the parking lot we decided to leave...

later we were just sittin at his house and we were trying to think of something else to do so we thought..."lick road" i said,... lick road is supposedly a haunted road because one point in time a guy killed his girlfreind there and they say if you go down the long road back in the forest at night and face the field and turn off your car..blink your head light 3 times and wait..your windows are supposed to fog up and the word help is written on your window and sometimes the name amy will appear on the sign and people have said theyhead a girls scream and saw a ghost of a girl walkin through the feild..

back to the story we were driving toward lick road when we decided to ask other people to go with us when we called them they were at the park were the fight was supposed to happen and there was alot of people there.  me, tommy, zack, rasche, wehman, shaun, buer, joey, and a couple other people so we all agreed to go to lick road, before we left we all drifted around the parking lot. it was really dark now and we were driving through widing backroads at high speeds witch is not safe at all and we almost hit a deer. when we got to the road we all came in and we waited for a minute and what looked like a cop came down behind all of us so we all drove away.  it was (citezins on patrol..) ya so me and tommy said screw it were gonna go back  but no one else wanted to go with us so we decided us to will only do it..we were making jokes to eachother liked what would you do if your car messed up or died or something just to be funny.  when we got to the road we sat a minute and everything was completly silent and all we could see is black feild....
he blinked his lights 3 times and we waited  (we were both scared..) lol  so after a minute the windows started to fog up we looked at eachoher scared and we looked nervously outside for any movement then i look at the windsheild and saw a hand print on the outside of the car so we started screamin and started driven away really fast we were still on the road and his check engine light came on and his car started dying and it wouldnt shift out of 2nd gear so we were so scared bo car was on the road anywere back home. his car almost didnt make it all the way home but the scareiest part was that the check engine light went off right when we got off the road...
and the one of the hand prints was a small childs hand print witch was also weird..

weve both decided not to go back to the road again lol
so yes we were scared and we look back on it and laugh now but at the time it was terrifying.. lol  more experinces soon =)

Wednesday, November 3, 2010


well i guess ill tell you guys about me so you get were im coming from lol
well im 17
ive been through alot in my life
ive expeirenced things that other people probly havnt
but im not bragging, there all regrets and in the past
ive done hard drugs, ive drank alot, ive smoked alot, i played people/sex/used
ive jumped/stabbed/done some things that im not going to say
i had relationships that i probly was to young to have my longest was 4 years
ive had more than 100 girlfreinds and i can name them all (im sorry)
ive done alot of illegal things alot of vandalism, stealing
im not proud of any of these things i wish i had never done them and if i could go back and change it i would
but i know life doesnt work like that so i have moved on and started new again
the freinds i grew up around arent around anymore..they changed, some died, other left and ive chosen to leave the people that were still doin those bad things so i dont have alot of freinds anymore
im ok with that because im not into the whole drama thing
i dont talk to girls anymore because i dont want any problems i have found the girl i love and its going to stay that way.

well now that you no bad stuff let me tell you good stuff haha
im a good person, im very nice ill talk to you if your not acting weird or flirting
i love music ive been around it along time
ive been in multiple bands lol
i play drums (9 years)
i start and stop learnin guitar but i can play haha
i can play piano a bit
i can sing/scream alittle hah
i like to write songs
ive won music awards

my favorite music went from rap when i was younger
then to metal
then to screamo/metalcore
then techno/nintendocore/trance/rave
lol so i liked alot of different music and now i listen to whatever except country and shit lol

i dont have a favorite band or color
im 5"10
i play sports
i have alot of trophies
(list of what ive played in my life)
so pretty much i can play whatever haha
im really athletic i like to stay in shape i hate fat people (but only if your lazy and fat)

i love art
im good at graffiti
(not toy shit)
ill post pics in the future
i like to draw differnt things that come to my head
i like to do graffit murals/characters

i like cars
(ya such a guy right?) lol
but anyways i love streetracing/drifting
i love offroad rally racing
my fav car is a 2002 mazda rx7
i will try to race/drift anything though hahah
i have a subaru forester
ford f150
and jeep wrangler
all custom shit

cars ive driven
ford 150 2 different ones
lol and ive driven all of these without a liscense =O lol o well

anyways if you want to know more about me dont be scared to ask me questions lol
just comment me or sumthin lol
cuz i could go all day haha

Tuesday, November 2, 2010


recovering from 4 years of depression a terrible time that i cant completley explain and all the things that came along with it.   after i decided to end it and get clean of everything that caused problems in my life, it just kept getting worse i felt as if there was no escape. a demon was upon me and i tried every way to get away from it drugs, alchohol, fighting, suicide.. i didnt want this anymore i took a long hard look at myself and relized everything that i was doing to myslef and relized were my life was going and wered ide probly end up

     my grades had never been good but there was a point that i never did anything i had all failing grades and i fought my parent and had to fight off thoughts of suicide everyday i felt there was no point,   really if everyone just takes a minute and thinks about it...  why are we put here? is there a reason?   your brought into this world with no choice your some are born with ablilities that are greater than others. some more smart, prettier, more athletic, more artistic...some have mental disibilites or handicapped   so were brought into this life and were born with obstacles to face you have no choices for the first 18 years of your life you follow the rules that are put infront of you wether you like it or not....problems are constantly thrown at you and you have to figure out how to solve them some are complicated problems others simplier   if you cant figure out your problems or have a harder time doing things you have consquences that you have to face  and after so long of this cycle you get tired of it and you start to rebel and you feel like there is no meaning no point to do anything..   your brought into this world without choice your constaly given obstacles and theres nothing you can do about it you have to follow rules even if you dont want to your forced into a school that your perents feel is best for you, and have papers and tasks thrown in your face everyday with the addition of kids that tease and bully once you pass school you look for a job? for what though you have to do the same thing everyday make money and then you do that and guess what comes out of all this once your finaly done? nothing...nothing at all just death thats your gift after going through life struggling and trying your best in nothing  i relized this early and just thought do i really want to continue life even though i no everyday is going to be a constant struggle.     i just didnt want this ..

finally i just said to myself that the world doesnt care about me it cares about its self, you have to follow the rules theres no escape so get used to it and step in line with all the other people you have no choice in life.  
i get mad when people complain about life and say there going to kill themselves now because i relize how idiotic it is,   it a pure sign of being a weak pussy and person that gives up at the first sign of chellenge.  pick urslef up and do it it until you get it right.

i leaned this and now im completley clean i do no drugs i dont drink i dont party i dont do illegal things i dont play people just to get forward i dont think about suicide i take every problems thrown my way and work it out the best i can. if your someone that will try to hold me back or slow me down then i will leave you and youll e nothing to me.  you cant feel sorry for urself if someone dies, its over there dead and theres no bringing them back so life doesnt stop for you it keeps going,

im not going to stop in my life until i finally reach where ever im destined to go in life whether thats is a rich man, a poor man. if death is around me if problems are thrown at me it doesnt matter because i know that i have lived my life the best i can and life didnt get the best of me and that i won the fight against life.

Monday, November 1, 2010

im back with a new account

yes its me again but im starting a different account and im going to start blogging more often and actually writing more so more posts, pictures and stuff coming soon =)