aeribaby --- and suicide

lol well this was an unexpected post because i have alot of work to do and i didnt think i would have time to post but wth haha....anyways to kittys post about crying and smiling haha i agree with that....butone wierd think i do is if im really sad/mad or feel like crying or even when i did cry i would smile i would force myself to smile  because that showd me that theres no reason to get upset or mad thats why i never cry anymore or it seems like i dont care about nothing...because in the end does it matter?  no   lol   people could have the worst day ever and everything could go wrong but the next day you could be fine?   so was it worth it to waste your whole day crying hit stuff and crap like that no it wasnt  think backs to days that you were really mad and stuff you said haha doesnt that seems stupid now?    people who kill themselves is really stupid to me and i dont feel sorry for them people that talk about commiting suicide or tell me there going to i say go ahead not because im mean but because think about it first?   if oyu want to commit suicide obviosly your upset? and youve had alot of struggles   yes we get that but alot of people have thos same struggles  im one of those people that have went through alot and stuff i havnt told anyone and ive been at the suicide point
                but anyways if you want to kill yourself think about it think about all the stuff youve been through  all the life youve lived so far and all the struggles youve gotten through why kill yourself now? doesnt that seem like the biggest waste ever? ya i hate wasting time i want everything done now and my way..so killing yourself is stupid yes i understand the whole wats the point  of life because we all end up dying int the end ya but mabye good stuff will come through your life mabye itll be good...because 98% of the time it does turn out good except for the few people that choose to stay sad...life doesnt suck you choose to hate everything and not do anything to better yourself and thats your own damn fault so get of your lazy emotional ass and do something productive....  so anyways if youve lived this much life yuo might as will live for longer and see whats your life turns into ive known alot of people that have killed themselves and that hve died from there own fault and i think there stupid and i dont think or care about them now becasue most kill themselves because they think no one cares and they say "theyl care once im gone" ya mabye for a couple months but life moves on...so is that worth it no   and ive never cried at one funeral   so anyways just think about your life shit happens but shit also changes so you might be sad today but itll get better i promise lol

o yes!

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        both accounts are nickotine17

the old days childhood post

well i said i would post about this haha
   i miss the old days  its not like that anymore and  ive moved on but it was the best part of my life ever

        well larry and leonard who are twins that live on my street walked down the street when we were tiny kids and from that day weve been best freinds..weve done everything together everyday..i remeber wed be over eachother houses everyday
                playing pokemon, cars, war, you name it haha
        we rode bikes all the time always built ramps and coarses
      
me and larry have done more though weve bmx skated,dated the same girls, cops, smoked, basketball, soccer, baseball, cards, scooter quad, built stuff, video games  anything weve done it
          it was deffinatly an adeventure everyday then we started to get older and real relationships came into play..more freinds started coming and going messing up stuff...then stuff changed larry is gone everyday, doest do anything always with mary rose...leonard sis at home all day...i have ibs so i dont want to go anywere   and i dont hang out with anyone else   so its gone its time for more jobs, relationships, college, and time to mature i guess ..

                  alright well bye i guess lol

i miss skating

yea for some reason ive been thinkin about skating latley..all the stuff i could do and what i want to do..i got on a board a couple days ago and did a simple kickflip it was sketchy so i felt bad...about how good i was then i just stopped skating its been along time since i skated..im sure if i got a board it would only take me a day before i got all my tricks back, so that would be fine but ledges stairs any of that crap idk....ollies off on ledges and some small steps sets should be ok mabye some 180s..but anything bigger i dont think so..i think ive havnt gone big for so long i think i would be to scared now after i broke my knee..i wanna skate clippard but its been awhile the biggest ive gone was a 7 set wich i kickflipped and broke my knee so i dont skate anymore ...and since when i bought a new deck i kickflipped a loading dock and snapped my deck and only had it for a week i stopped skating...  i can get a new board but idk if i want to skate because even if i do whats the point its not like im gonna go anywere, i prob wont even go to clippard to far..and everything around us ive already done..and aint worth going big off of becasue its so sketch and its garanteed to get hurt on...
oc steps cracked missshappen and pebbles all over the landing,  
oc tables-wobbly cracks narrow.
hope-slanted, cracks, downhill slant landing.
hope loading steps-cracks, 5 steps but last step is slated outward.
hope church steps-angle roll up, shifty ollie narrow landing
corpus christy steps-cracks, no roll up
taylor-slanted cracked roll up, steep steps cracked downhill landing, narrow creek on both sides
iga loading dock-complete crap, hard landing slanted and crap everywere
jane hoop-contruction, stupid ramp, little steps sets/ stupid cracks steps
beavis- cracks roll up and landing, hard ground
mt.healthy 8/12- unesscary biggness
funeral home set-bad location
we have more little crap around us but its all bad  and im not willing to travel

 im better flatground anyways
    flip tricks
 ollie-switch, fakie,nollie
180 bs-switch,fakie,nollie
180 fs-switch,fakie,nollie
360 fakie and nollie----     not switch
shuv bs-switch,fakie,nollie
shuv fs-switch,fakie,nollie
360 shuv -fakie, nollie----not switch
kickflip-switch,fakie,nollie
heelflip-switch,fakie,nollie
varial flip-switch,fakie,nollie
varial heel-fakie,nollie----not switch
big spin fs/bs- fakie, nollie----not switch
bs flip-fakie----not switch or nollie
fs flip- fakie---not switch or nollie
big flip-fakie---not switch or nollie
360 flip-fakie--not switch or nollie
 twisted flip-fakie--not switch or nollie
                  grab tricks

indy
nose grab
tailgrab
hand shuvit
hand 180

               grind tricks

 boardslide
noseslide
tailslide
50/50
5/0
nosegrind

           theres other stupid crap i can do ona skateboard but o well haha
i can do manuals to fliptricks out, bonless, no comply other stupid crap but owell
haha                      

               have any questions just ask


   

life update (feb 14)

well today is valentines day... haha so anyways things have changed a bit lol i saw kitty on friday and saturday..it was fun on friday we hung out at night we did some fun stuff but it was freezing cold lol, and there wa ice everywere so we fell alot because we were riding bikes lol on purpose though because its fun lol then we went into leaonards house to hang out for awhile and do stuff lol witch was fun lol....then on saturday we hung out all day and did pretty much the same thing lol i loved it so im going to try to see her more now.

hm i havnet really painted on vs in awhile wich isnt good at all because im not trying to get kicked out of sbk or forgotten so hopefully i get some motovation or collabs soon....kitty work on some shit for me lol  

 not much to say really...o well bye

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